Since President Kennedy ran his famous race with Richard Nixon, I have not emotionally handle elections very well. Literally at different times in a campaign the feeling is one of pins and needles are being stuck in me. For example, when President Obama gave his speech this week, my nerves were raw hoping that he would do well. My leg pounces up and down, my stomach grumbles and my ability to witness history is relegated to after the actual heralded event
The anxiety comes from knowing that a particular event such as a Convention speech, the first debate or a tragic slip of the tongue on the campaign trial could leave hopes and dreams in tatters.
This election in particular means so much to me since it decides if the 50 plus years I have been serving others and organizing will move forward or seriously be turned back. So with the upcoming debates my planning process is already in full gear. There are a number of options for me. Some I have discarded already because of concerns for those surrounding me.
Going to the movies doing the debate is out of the question. Shouting in the middle of a major IMAX 3-D hit movie, "Has anyone heard how the debate is going?" is simply putting my safety at risk.
Reading a good book would be a nice idea with quiet music playing. Such a grown up way of handling times of stress. However banging the book against the wall and yelling to my neighbors if they have they heard what is happening might lead to a very quick eviction.
Certainly sitting in a bar with a bartender is out because they will have the debates on their television sets. Who's idea was it to put modern media in a bar anyway? Is there no safe place in the world from technology?
Maybe a nice two hour walk around Manhattan. However you just know it will rain. Stopping people on the street like a desperate panhandler asking if they have heard how Obama is doing in the debate will have people pull away in horror. Although there might be the opportunity to make some much needed money as dollar bills and spare change are slipped to me with compassion.
Xxnax is a possibility however most likely I will become so relaxed that I will simply weep through the entire debate.
Right now I have no answer but already obsession about the first debate is starting to creep into my life. My friends, neighbors and citizens of Manhattan have been warned. No longer am I responsible for my behavior while the first debate is on television. You have been warned that I could be hazardous to your health.